Traveller Connector Author Inspirator Guide
Say not, “I have found the path of the soul.” Say rather, “I have met the soul walking upon my path.” For the soul walks upon all paths. Kahlil Gibran
Of course the soul journey takes a life time. But for me the spiritual path opened in a conscious way at midlife, around the year 2000. Through some far-reaching transformations in my life I started to realize that there is more under the sun than the eye can see. After a career as a University Professor of Women’s Studies and the Ethic of Care at Utrecht University I discovered a new world – of the soul and the imagination. Step by step I built my own practice as an independent researcher, a consultant and a spiritual worker. All the way through the labyrinth provided a solid basis for my inner and outer journey. But there were more sources of inspiration that guided me on the path – and continue to do so.
It all started with some very big, nearly mystical dreams. I got letters from Above, saw heavenly doors opening, and persons and symbols coming towards me that guided me through the abodes of the Divine. And I received some very clear assignments, for example to join the sun, the moon, and the five-pointed star together in the sky. I was completely amazed and decided that I could only follow these nightly signs: it marked my entry into the world of synchronicity.
After a while my dreams also guided me on my outer journeys. During my many stays in South Africa the Goddess started to appear to me. Later, when I went to Italy, I saw myself in an endless sequence of images going through the Etruscan landscapes, guiding processions and doing ceremony, often hand in hand with the Goddess. I saw myself digging into the earth, joining water and fire, and walking over the waters of Bolsena Lake. At some crucial moments in my life St. Michael appeared in my dreams, as if to reassure me in what I was doing. At 21-12-12 in a dream I received a golden sun disk on my head, And often also I got clear indications about where to go and what to do. I could only obey: that’s how I found the path of Matilda di Canossa.
Many times also my dreams brought me far into the dark cellars of my own ànd the collective unconscious, showing me my inner monsters and clarifying the inner wounds that I had to heal before being able to travel on. It taught me the principe of ‘descending into the dark’ and embracing it, that in fact became a crucial element of the journey of the soul for me. The light is born from the darkness, we have to learn it over and over again…
Sources of inspiration
During my long journey I found inspiration from many directions. I learned to meditate, on the Christian path, and started to read the great Christian mystics, like Meister Eckhart, Hildegard of Bingen, Teresa of Avila, and John of the Cross. It deeply resonated with my own experiences. Many contemporary spiritual teachers guided me by their writings, like Thomas Moore, Andrew Harvey, Marion Woodman, Anselm Grun and Cynthia Bourgeault. I started to go to church, and joined the Dominicus Gemeente in my home town Amsterdam, to get acquainted with the Christian tradition. And I immersed myself in books and teachings about Buddhism and Sufism, and about the history and the return of the feminine Divine.
It all got a new dimension when I encountered the Inka spirituality. In Italy and Amsterdam I received all the initiations of Andean masters Don Juan Nuñez del Prado and Don Ivan Nuñez del Prado. They learned me that we are all part of networks of living energy, and instructed me how to work with these. In the end it also brought me to Peru, where I travelled around for two long periods, in 2010 and 2012. It has not only enriched my own life, but also laid a solid base under my group journeys through the sacred landscapes in Italy.
And then, I was deeply influenced by the works of Carl Jung and his students. It gave me an understanding of the synchronicities I was going through. It enabled me to interpret what I saw in my own and in the collective unconscious, and got me acquainted in working with the shadow. By the notion of the archetypes I learned to understand symbols, images, sacred texts and sacred landscapes, myths and fairy tales at a much deeper level than before. It made me acquainted with the meaning of the alchemical and gnostic symbols that I saw in my dreams and in the churches and sacred places that I visited. And it made me understand that I was going through a process of individuation, that is in fact a long journey of the soul that needs time, patience and dedication…
Connections and combinations
In my spiritual work I like to combine these different approaches and traditions. For years I called my practice ‘Ancient wisdom for a new age’. For I am convinced that it is no coincidence that ancient wisdom traditions are returning in this century. They have a lot to teach us for the future of mankind.
That’s also why I call myself a connector. I have always been a bridge-builder. First between women and science. Then between the visible and the invisible worlds. I am still exploring the middle ground between science and spirituality. But I also see myself as a bridge builder between the treasures I find in Italy and the Dutch culture into which I was born.
I love to connect people and places, in my work with the labyrinth, in my writings, my journeys, and in the networks and friendship circles in which I participate. It’s all about weaving webs of co-creation, and about inventing new forms of consciousness and living together. Indeed in 2012 I saw myself in a dream weaving a network around the world. It concisely expressed what I see as my reason for being here, and I increasingly feel part of networks of people who are sharing this mission. In the end it’s all about learning to live from the heart.
Now is the time…
to unite the soul and the world…
Now is the time…
to see the sunlight dancing as one with the shadows.